| I am controlling you?!?!? and you are not happy... then are u trying to control me as well when u tell me that and expecting me to not say anything? I dunno......................ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....i know i might be thinking too much. But isn't that supposed to be normal for girls? Do you know it hurts when you say I am changing your life & controlling you? Sometimes I just think....why I need to do so much and I still kept continue even other ppl around me are complaining. You seems never notice ><....may be I am doing too much and u just feel too normal. Anyhow, I want to say: If I dun care, I won't even feel angry. Do you know the reason why I feel uncomfortable? If I am not loving you, I won't even care who you talk or stay or do with. :( This is the worse day ever for the past 4years and 7 months!!! :( You told me you are disappointed about me. SO DO I!!! Cos for so many years, you still don't know what I am thinking and what I want. |
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| 最近好唔開心
人愈大，愈大壓力
其實可能係我嘅問題
但係一次錯誤已經可以令你永不反生
每日返工都好擔心，擔心今日又唔知會有什麼事發生，擔心又比人話
每日都好驚甘度過
知道自己咩事，我知道我唔可以逼太緊
但係我唔想放棄，問題喺我可唔可以做到contract完，喺一個問題
好煩惱呀!
我係唔係應該休息下，放下假?
好唔想見公司嘅人:(
我係公司似乎好不受歡迎甘
唔同我之後都係甘？ |
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| Welcome 2010!!
Wow! It has been ages since I last the last update. My 2009 is just full of happiness and sadness...I suppose half for each:P
First, I managed to finished my treatments in the beginning of the year, I survived at the end with just 3 treatments, which was only half way of what the doctors planned. Thumb up to myself :D for all the pills and needles that I have gone through so far...then I started to get back to normal routine, back to work in March after so many months of sick leave. Then I got to go to Mimi's wedding in Malaysia..wohoho...feel so happy for her:P ( don't know how my wedding is like in future :P ) Here comes the most exciting part, I became a car owner in September. My very first car in my life :D my blue beetle finally arrived after so many months of waiting. Followed by the 3rd Anniversary celebration with teddy bear in Singapore, our first time to celebrate together. <3<3 Well, of course there was some bad times during the year, left my job in Oct. I suppose it was a good news for me as I was really upset for what the company has done so far.
My 2010 missions:
- taking less pills....or may be no pills soon plsss....that's like for morning only. Well at least better than a year ago = =''
- me and teddy bear will get a decent job soon
- less blood tests...(needles, needles, needles.....)
- Japan trip with teddy bear...still not succeed yet :( I know that was what I want from last year as well
- always be healthy, don't need to go back to hospital. I hate to stay there >< (cos no internet)
- recovering before 2011, seems kinda tough I was saying recovering before 2010 in the last entry....= =''
But I will still work hard with these doctors :P yeah!!!
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Looking forward to drive you back home in a few months!!!
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| suddenly got a phone call from hospital, need to go back tmr....hopefully it's not sth bad 
pray for me ar 
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